Rejecting The Spiritualization of Scarcity!

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So I recently attended a truly fabulous conference on social justice. But during the otherwise brilliant opening address, in the context of discussing how we’re often told there isn’t enough money when social justice and reconciliation initiatives are brought forward, the speaker said something to the effect of “what’s more important, beautiful buildings or people’s lives?” She said it as though it’s a no-brainer. And of course, on one level, it absolutely is! Of course people’s lives are more important than buildings no matter how beautiful or historic! At the same time, though, this quip, not the first of its kind that I’ve heard over my years of political involvement, bothered me. And it took me some time and reflection to work out why beyond the slightly snide, condescending tone in which the remark was and is so often made.

When I thought about it later, though, I realized that what bothered me about this statement and ones like it is that they feel like an adoption into our spiritual values of the scarcity paradigm of the over-culture. Because, to be sure, the neoliberal capitalist system in which we live all too often does force us to make those kinds of choices! But are we really saying that in the Kingdom of God – in the world of justice and peace that we desire to bring into being – there can’t/won’t be enough for us to have both thriving people and beautiful places of worship and social gathering? And if we are, indeed, saying that, why? Some may be saying it out of very real concerns about ecological footprint and use of Earth’s resources, and that’s absolutely legit and an important issue that will need to be worked out. But are we saying it for ideological reasons? Because, remarks like the one referenced above seem to me to reflect a feeling, not just that there is an externally imposed or situational opposition between thriving people and projects like the maintenance of buildings, but that there is an inherent, intrinsic opposition between them.

Note: I’m particularly asking the above questions of my Progressive Christian colleagues, but Pagans need to think about them as well, especially Pagans who seek to be socially and politically engaged. Same questions, different causes and routes there.

In the Christian world, we have a long tradition of exalting asceticism as the epitome of spiritual living – as the way to live a truly holy life. And although we reject that traditions tendencies toward misogyny and hatred of the body, Progressive/Left Christians share its veneration of simplicity and surrender. We cite Jesus’s instruction to “give all you have to the poor”. We look to how the early disciples were sent out to teach and heal with literally nothing but the clothes on their backs, instructed to live only by the hospitality offered to them. We admire figures like St Frances of Assisi for their emulation of this life of holy simplicity. We reference the story of the mana from heaven in Exodus in which God instructs the Israelites to take only what they need to feed themselves and their families each day, and in which those who try to hoard find the extra mana rotten and unusable. We admire movements like the Quakers, Shakers, etc, for their commitments to simple living and, often, for their rejection of “high” church pageantry as well.

On the Pagan side, meanwhile, there is great admiration for the figure of the Witch living simply by herself in a hut in the woods. She is seen as an exemplar of connection to the Earth and of living lightly on Her. And it is true that both these images of holy simplicity, the Christian and the Pagan, offer powerful counters to the over-culture’s constant pressure to define ourselves and our worth by our material possessions or lack thereof. They offer a potent counter to the narrative that material affluence = happiness.

But they also, intentionally or not, imply that subsistence is OK, but that to desire anything beyond that is suspect if not actually sinful. They suggest that humble subsistence is holy, but that wanting anything beyond that runs the danger of sliding toward materialism and greed. They use the language of abundance for all, but abundance is elided with subsistence. If we all just stop desiring anything beyond the basics of decent food, shelter, clothing and access to nature and community, the thinking seems to go, then all the problems of scarcity, inequality and environmental degradation we currently face will be solved. Or, as I’ve heard it said quoting Gandhi, “live simply so others may simply live”.

The problem with the above is that, while that message may resonate very powerfully – and, indeed, may be powerfully liberating – for those seeking an escape from the pressure to “keep up with the Joneses” and/or those called to the path of asceticism, it doesn’t work for everyone. Asceticism is a perfectly valid path to which some people are genuinely called. But not everyone is, and not because they’re greedy or spiritually weak either. And holding up that path as the only way to goodness – the only way to live a just and spiritually grounded life – pushes away and, frankly, alienates those whose spiritual orientations lead in other directions. And if we want and need to build a mass-movement to defeat the forces of capitalism, oligarchy, neo/fascism, etc, then we have to stop alienating the non-ascetically oriented. We have to find ways to welcome and incorporate those not called to asceticism into our spiritual and political work and movements, and not by continuing to try to shame or guilt-trip them into converting to humble simplicity.

Full disclosure here. In case it hasn’t come through yet, I’m very much one of those people. The path of the ascetic has never resonated with me. I have great respect for people who are called to that path and have learned vastly from the wisdom they bring, But that’s not how my heart and soul connect to God/Spirit. And while it is true that the constant exaltation of holy simplicity hasn’t driven me out of activism so far because my care for the issues keeps me hanging in, I have more often than not found that I cannot bring my whole self to political work because my deep love of material culture is looked on as a political and spiritual failing that I need to be encouraged to grow out of.

So yes, I desire and fight for a world in which we can have both beautiful places of worship (official and unofficial), and beautiful homes, and thriving, well-cared-for people of all races, genders, beliefs, nationalities, etc, including true reconciliation with Indigenous peoples! I want us to find ways to break out of neoliberalism’s horrible games of divide-and-conquer and “race to the bottom” that keep us trapped in paradigms of scarcity. I get making a virtue out of – or rather finding the virtue in – living with less given how we’re daily surrounded by increasing economic austerity and climate disaster. But I don’t believe this should be the whole or final answer. We need a world of real, fulsome abundance so that all God/dess’s/Spirit’s children can thrive with dignity and joy, not just live with basic subsistence!

Final point of full disclosure. Because, while this really shouldn’t need saying explicitly, it probably does. I’m not rich. My family fell out of affluence back in my grandmother’s time. And since then, we’ve sometimes sat on the very bottom rungs of what remains of the middle class, and at other times (and frankly much more often since the 90s) we’ve stared down the barrel of dire poverty. We haven’t fallen irrevocably into it yet, but the ever-present precarity is very real! Anyway, I thought it might be important to mention that in case there was some temptation to write off the above as just another affluent whiner.

Rebooting Everything, Slowly.

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So you may have seen things starting to come back to life around here and on my social media? Or, maybe not yet, as the changes may have been too small to notice. Either way, though, yep, stuff’s coming back! It’s just taking a while to do it.

As was the case for so many people, everything got really derailed during the pandemic. But that gave me an opportunity to rethink and re-evaluate. And when I did, LOL things came out in a different shape than they’d been in when I started! Plus, something about my Saturn Square?

Anyhow, the result has been a complete rebranding, at least in terms of names. Although, I’m generally trying to keep the look of things, because I’m happy with that. But, as I re-evaluated stuff coming out of the worst of the pandemic, I realized that my sense of what I’m about and what I’m doing has shifted from when I started all this. I began this journey really trying to understand how to see/feel the romantic and erotic heart of Phantom in myself as some one who doesn’t fit the traditional gender binary as embodied in the portrayals of The Phantom and Christine, and who, therefore, can’t simply choose to manifest one or the other. And that’s still definitely an important part of what I’m about! But it’s also, as I said, shifted from there, partly as I’ve come much more out about my gender fluidity. Although, I’m still working out exactly what being gender fluid looks, sounds and feels like for me. But also, over the past couple of years, I’ve really started trying to live into and come out about by spirituality, and to cultivate a spiritual practice. Phantom has always been deeply spiritual for me to be sure. But I’ve also always been kind of self-conscious about it because so many people around me didn’t take it seriously, so I kind of internalized that. But lately, under the influence of some fabulous Witchy podcasts, I’ve been actually taking it seriously – trying to really live into cultivating a spiritual and magical practice that incorporates/is rooted in Phantom. It’s still very much a work in progress! And it took the coming together of a bunch of elements that only really clicked into place very recently. But that’s really what it feels like my work needs to be about, at least for the foreseeable future!

All that to say, then, that I’ve been retooling all my projects to reflect these changes. But they will come back once they’re ready! I’ve already started sharing new stuff on my Soundcloud and my Instagram, although, as usual, not as much or as often as I feel like I should have. But there will be more, so never fear! And yes, my podcast will be coming back, too. Although, it may take more time as it’s undergoing the most thorough reboot. But I hope to have it back early in 2023 if not sooner! But of course, I’m also still in the process of finishing up my doctoral dissertation, and that has to take priority as it’s got time constraints. And that, plus my own not terribly high-powered working pace, is slowing things down. So we’ll see how soon things get back up and going, but hopefully soon!

Anyway, I hope you’ll all come along on this new phase of the journey. And I hope you continue to find my projects interesting, engaging and thought-provoking, and of course, fun!

Miscellaneous Updates.

So once again I haven’t posted in a really long time! Indeed, all my stuff’s been on indefinite hiatus for a while while I’ve been focussing on trying to get the bulk of my dissertation written. And it’s coming along awesomely, although there’s still lots to do! But it hasn’t left me bandwidth for much else.

My various projects are definitely coming back, though! I’m just not sure how soon. And in the mean time, I’m taking some time to do some infrastructure tweeking to hopefully make things more cohesive. You may have noticed some of that already here and on my Twitter. And then, with any luck, I’ll be able to get back to actually creating new content in the not too distant future!

My podcast has new hosting!

So I wanted to let folks here know that my podcast has moved. Don’t get me wrong, Fireside are great! Although, there site has gotten less Safari compatible, and therefore less accessible for me, since I started with them back in 2018. And there were some accessibility issues I brought to their attention that they never did fix, although, admittedly, I didn’t nag them nearly as much as I should have. But those aren’t the reasons I decided to move my show. They’re still a great service and I’d definitely recommend them!

No, I decided to change hosting services because of straight-up affordability LOL all to be able to keep hosting one episode! Because, the one catch with Fireside is that there cheaper plans have a 100 MB file-size limit. And there’s this one interview I did last year where the file goes just a bit over that! LOL And I don’t have nearly the editing skill necessary to get the file-size down, much less without loosing audio quality!

But then, actually during my zine launch, a friend mentioned Anchor.fm, which is a free hosting service. But even though it’s free, it still has quite good creation and distribution features, although I’m still getting the hang of all the ins and outs. And while it does have a file-size limit, it’s 200 MB!! LOL So that gives me a lot more wiggle-room. Which is awesome, because I’m hoping to do a lot more interviews! And I don’t like to cut them. I prefer to keep interviews as natural as possible.

Anyway, the new podcast site is https://anchor.fm/in-this-labyrinth to check out. The show’s also back up and running on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts and Spotify (URLs at the bottom of this post), and is newly available on RadioPublic and Breaker. So we’re back in business!!

Oh, and I’ll be posting a new episode very soon with highlights from my zine launch. Because, as I think I mentioned, the fabulous folks who volunteered to read excerpts from the first issue also awesomely allowed me to record their readings to share on the podcast! I’m so thankful to them for that. So watch this space, and/or the podcast website, and/or the podcast Facebook and Twitter for that very soon. Indeed, I hope to get it posted in the next few days!

In This Labyrinth: Justice From The Heart Of The Phantom Of The Opera connections:

Twitter: @ITLPodcast

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/inthislabyrinth

Twitter: https://www.twitter.com/itlpodcast

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/in-this-labyrinth-justice-from-the-heart-of-the-phantom-of-the-opera/id1433588959

Google Podcasts: https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy82N2E1OTM1MC9wb2RjYXN0L3Jzcw==

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3kti86f6mnlMnhkBpeoRG7

RadioPublic: https://radiopublic.com/in-this-labyrinth-justice-from-th-6V7yKl

Breaker: https://www.breaker.audio/in-this-labyrinth-justice-from-the-heart-of-the-phantom-of-the

Launching The Zine At Last!!

So once again I know I haven’t updated in a while. There was all the usual end-of-term stuff around getting my final grades done and ready to be sent to the department by my prof, and then I moved half way across the province! We (Mom and I) had actually been thinking about moving for quite a while because where we were was getting really, really unaffordable, but then the new place came up really suddenly! So yeah, the past bunch of months have been something of a mad whirlwind. LOL We only just got the last of the boxes sent off to recycling last night, and there’s still a load or two of bubble-wrap to be disposed of! LOL And I never imagined one could use that much bubble-wrap outside and industrial setting. Wow!! And of course, it’s taken a while to recover (though, actually, I’d say we’re still recovering), and to get settled in and get everything back up and working.

Anyway, I mentioned last time I posted that I was hoping/planning to have an official launch event for my zine. And I’m now delighted to say that it’s actually happening!! It’s on August 10th at 6 PM on Zoom, right in the midst of my 31st Phanniversary week as I’d originally hoped! Which is perfect, because this first issue – Creature Of Darkness – really focusses on my first encounters with POTO and the contexts that set them up to ignite such a powerful, long-lasting obsession. And I’ve got a lovely team of volunteer readers lined up to read a selection of excerpts at the launch, which is really exciting! LOL I decided to do that because, alas, I’m a better writer than a reader, even of my own stuff. So huge thanks to them!

In any case, you can get tickets at the EventBrite link below. It’s PWYC, and half of proceeds are going to be donated to an org doing work on Disability Justice in line with the values of the zine. And hopefully it’ll be a really awesome, fun evening!

https://www.eventbrite.ca/e/zine-launch-in-one-combined-tickets-162110537983

Unfortunately, though, the one downer is that I don’t, at this point, have the ability to provide closed-captioning for the event. Really sorry about that!! But it’s set up as a regular Zoom-meeting, and apparently that doesn’t give me the ability to enable CC. Maybe because of my account type? And while it might if I upgraded the event to a webinar, I’m not sure I can afford to do that right now as my finances are still incredibly shot after the giant move! If anyone knows a cheap/free work-around for that, though, please get in touch? That’d be enormously helpful as I don’t want to be inaccessible if I can help it!!

Anyhow, that not withstanding, and hopefully with a solution found soon if possible, it’s shaping up to be a really exciting event. I’m enormously looking forward to it, and I’m looking forward to seeing/hearing folks there!

Check out my new zine!

So I know I mentioned ages ago that I was working on this. And I finally got it up and published!! Yay!!! I had the content written way back last year. But then formatting it properly for Lulu Press and getting it actually published on their platform was quite a bit more significant a learning curve than I counted on! Hopefully future issues will go more smoothly, though, now that I’ve (more or less) got the hang of it (LOL I think).

It also underwent a name-change in the process. I was originally going to call the overall zine Creature Of Darkness after that awesome line from Phantom – “Pitiful creature of darkness, what kind of life have you known? God, give me courage to show you you are not alone!” (Act II scene 9). Because, especially in this first issue, trauma is one of the major themes of the zine. But I ended up making that the title just of the first issue, and changing the overall title to In One Combined – after the line from the title song “Your spirit and my voice in one combined, The Phantom of the Opera is there inside your mind” (Act I scene 4). Because, while trauma definitely remains a key theme, I found I wanted a title for the overall zine that pointed as much toward healing and discovering one’s power. And of course, the title song has always been my favourite!!

Anyhow, as mentioned above, the first issue is now up on Lulu Press. You can find:

the print version at https://www.lulu.com/en/ca/shop/phantomfemme-/in-one-combined/paperback/product-vwmeme.html?page=1&pageSize=4

and the ebook version at https://www.lulu.com/en/ca/shop/phantomfemme-/in-one-combined/ebook/product-ww28em.html?page=1&pageSize=4

Note. The ebook is significantly cheaper! And it should be fully accessible. I hope! There are no images, only text. And my screen-reader did OK with it when I test-read the first few pages (not withstanding that the Mac OS Books app navigation is a pain in the ass).

Note also, all issues (whenever they come out) will be available to subscribers on my Patreon at the $5 per month level and above, along with other flavours of bonus content as well. You can find me at www.patreon.com/phantomfemme

I’m planning to do an official launch for the zine (on Zoom of course) later in the summer 🙂 around the time of my 31st Phanniversary. Because, that seems appropriate! But I wanted to go ahead and let folks know it’s out now. Though, caveat, I have no idea how often future issues will come out! It all depends on how often I find time and inspiration to write for them. Though, I suspect that, as with this issue, out-takes from my dissertation will be rich sources of content!

Anyway, I hope folks enjoy the zine and find it interesting/useful. And I hope it opens up new ways of thinking about, imagining, and loving Phantom!!

Song Of Hope – Lyrics

So I recently posted this cover of one of my favourite songs – Song Of Hope by Jim Strathdee – on my new YouTube channel Spirit And Voice. It’s one of those songs that’s kind of a musical manifesto for me because I feel like it really captures the values, politics and spirit I find in Phantom! You can listen to it here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sF5xjXnCfPQ&t=45s

It’s been mentioned to me, though, that the words can be a bit hard to hear. I hope not, though sorry about that if they are! So I thought I’d post the lyrics here just in case, so folks can read along if that’s helpful. Hope so!

Note: the lyrics below are significantly rewritten from Strathdee’s original. Don’t get me wrong, I love the original and the sentiments it expresses. But unfortunately, a lot of the imagery it uses is really ableist! Gender-binaried, too. And as a Disabled, Gender-fluid musician, I just wasn’t comfortable with that. So I took the liberty of rewriting portions of the words to hopefully express the same sentiments but without the heterosexism and ableism! I hope I’ve succeeded. (There also some other, minor rewrites as well that expand the song from its original anti-war context.) Also, the tune that I use is not quite Strathdee’s original either. I sing the tune the way I learned it in an awesome liturgical band I used to sing in called the Fallen Angles!

“When there’s darkness all around us overwhelming heart and mind,
when all roads lead to confusion and hope’s impossible to find,
free our – free our minds for dreaming of the day when hate and war shall cease!
Free our – free our dreams to lead us onward to the ways of peace.

When the sounds of destruction seem to freeze our very breath,
when our songs and laughter vanish in terror at the sounds of death,
free our – free our hearts for loving this life, so precious and so dear!
Free our – free our voices for singing the songs that overcome our fear!

When, in weary isolation, we’ve lost the courage to care,
when our captive spirits languish in the bondage of despair,
free us to reach for one another in whatever ways we can!
Free us to work boldly together to restore hope to this land!

When our kindred are in slavery, when our neighbours are in need,
when the cost is untold misery for the 1-percent’s power and greed,
when the – when the ties are broken, when it seems we’ve lost our soul,
free our lives for service to make the human family whole!”

(Note: in Strathdee’s original version there’s one more verse that I don’t do. For one thing, the four verses above make the song quite long already! But also, I find it more powerful to leave it where I have above.)

Anyway, I hope folks enjoy that/find it meaningful/inspirational. And of course, merry Christmas and happy new year!!

Writer and musician exploring Phantom of the Opera as trauma-magic for humanity in crisis. Also, host of the In This Labyrinth: Justice From the Heart of The Phantom Of The Opera podcast.

www.phantomfemme.com

https://inthislabyrinth.fireside.fm/

My Music Finally Launched – Spirit And Voice!

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So it finally happened! LOL I know, it seemed like it might never. But yep, I’ve finally got my music re-launched! The delay was caused by trying to work out the most accessible way to post videos of me doing my music online that can then be easily shared. And to my surprise, after quite a bit of trial and error, I ended up going with old-fashioned YouTube! It’s not perfect by any means, and honestly at first I didn’t think it would work for me. But I found Vimeo not that accessible either, and ultimately YouTube ended up being easier to post to and share from – which surprised me! And I was ultimately able to get it to give me a channel name that I like, and allow me to make sure I’m signed in properly and not accidentally in one of my other Google accounts, both of which were problems when I first started exploring it.

So now that that’s all sorted out, welcome to my new YouTube channel – Spirit And Voice! And it’s not only the new home for my music. Recall a while ago I mentioned really wanting to find a space to start sharing my spirituality? Well, I’ve decided to use the channel for that as well. Which makes sense, because my spirituality and my music are deeply intertwined! So the channel will be a blend of music posts and posts where I share the work in progress that is my Phantom-centred ChristoPagan spiritual practice. You can check it out at the link below!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3l3r0mI033oE36uoXpUsOA

Anyway, I hope you all enjoy that and find the stuff I post there interesting. Uh, and I hope this works! I’m trying posting by email for the first time because the new WordPress post-editor has some accessibility issues that are driving me up the wall! So let’s hope this works as a work-around.

And of course, blessed Winter Solstice to everyone, belated happy Chanukah, and merry Christmas!!

 

Announcing a new project – Creature Of Darkness!! #Zine #PhantomoftheOpera

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So once again it’s been ages since I’ve posted here. LOL I get so busy doing stuff that I don’t find time to write about it! And I’ve shifted a lot of the analysis stuff that I used to do here to my podcast, and to the new project I’ll soon be launching!

So after feeling excluded from zine culture for a lot of years because of its seeming like another hyper-visual idiom that would have a lot of barriers to me as a Blind person, I finally, recently, got inspired to do my own zine! I was inspired by the amazing zines written and produced by Clementine Morrigan https://www.clementinemorrigan.com, in particular their zines Fucking Magic and Trauma Magic. They’re both life-writing zines in which Clementine shares their own journey of recovery and coming into magical and political consciousness. And they’re really powerful and beautiful! Clementine also, to my eternal gratitude, makes a point of making them accessible. They’re heavy on text, and she makes sure the pdfs are screen-reader friendly. Which finally made me feel welcome in the world of zining!

So, as I said, Clementine’s work inspired me to start a zine of my own. Because, I really like the format they use! And I feel like I feel like it’s the write idiom in which to share my own journey of and reflections on coming into politicized, magical Phanship. Because, while I’ve shared some of that in my academic writing and certainly plan to continue doing so, academic writing has certain limitations. You can’t always get as personal, as speculative – as “what if…?”. You can’t often talk about magic and spirituality except as social processes, and you generally have to present a critical analysis. Whereas, in a zine format like Clementine’s, you don’t necessarily have to present a critical analysis. You certainly can, but you don’t have to. And it also gets around the other limitations of academic writing.

The first zine I’m starting, then, is called Creature Of Darkness after the line “Pitiful creature of darkness, what kind of life have you known? God, give me courage to show you you are not alone!” from the Final Lair in Phantom. It’s part Phanzine, part perzine, and part on-going, evolving manifesto. It’s a search for self and community through sharing my own journey as a Disabled, Gender-fluid, Queerish, ChristoPagan medical/educational-industrial complex surviver Phan. And I hope it’ll help others the way Clementine’s work has helped me – by providing a space where those on similar/intersecting/parallel journeys can feel heard/seen and know they’re/you’re not alone, and by sharing the healing tools and insights that have been so helpful and powerful for me! I hope to launch it some time this month, both on my Patreon – https://www.patreon.com/phantomfemme – and on Lulu Press. Though, I also think I might make some of the first issues available here, too, for free just to help get the thing going. I’m still figuring out the cover-art, though, so I’m not sure exactly when that will happen. So watch this space!!

Also watch my Patreon, though. Because, I might also release some excerpts from the first issue there as teasers. They’ll be available at the cheapest tier, though, and there may be some freebies as well! So keep an eye/ear out for that soon.

 

I’m also planning, at some point, to launch a project in which I sahre my thoughts and practice of Phantom and Phanship as a ChristoPagan spiritual path.  But I haven’t decided yet whether to do that as another zine or a new podcast.  There are pros and cons either way!  As some of you will recall, I started sharing some of that as a blog project earlier this year, in fact. But, A, a blog didn’t quite feel right for it, and B, I found I just couldn’t keep up with that much writing and posting on top of everything else I’m working on!  And I’m not sure yet whether a new podcast or a zine would make that more manageable and be the format best suited to the topic.  And I have no idea when that project might happen, so definitely watch this and my other spaces for updates!

 

Anyway, that’s what’s coming up in the near future.  And as you can imagine, I’m really excited about it!  And of course, I hope you’ll all really enjoy my upcoming projects and find them useful as well.

My Music Finally Rebooted At Last!

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So I mentioned (quite a while ago now) that I was planning to reboot my music after doing a good deal of rethinking. And I finally have! It took a while, though, both to get things set back up, and because I was looking for the right occasion to relaunch. And this past Saturday, June 6 2020, seemed like an excellent time to do so!

As you’ll perhaps recall, I’ve performed several times in the Toronto Open Tuning Festival. Well, this year, for obvious reasons, the festival was held online rather than live. Plus, of course, it’s the start of Pride month. So this seemed to me like a perfect opportunity to launch the reboot of my music with my contribution to the online Open Tuning! (See the embed above. And do let me know if it works!)

I’m essentially relaunching my music online, then, because, that’s the most accessible way for me to share it. Don’t get me wrong, I love performing live when I’m able to! But I’ve found that, between my fluctuating “spoons” and challenges with getting around, I’m not able to nearly as often as I’d like. Not to mention, I’m not able to perform live nearly as often as necessary to pursue a music career seriously. Thankfully, though, there’s the magic of the internet! And there, I can share both my original songs and covers whenever I’m able and publicize them on social media. So check out my new Vimeo channel called Spirit and Voice!

Granted, I’m not sure how often I’ll be posting music there. It depends on my “spoons” and how my music is balancing with everything else I’m working on. Plus, because I only have semi-fine motor control, it can take me a long time to learn and master new accompaniments even when they’re relatively simple. But I’m really looking forward to sharing my music in a way that’s relatively accessible for me!

That said, though, as a Blind musician, sharing my music in a video idiom is a bit of a challenge. In honesty, I have no idea what my videos look like, or if they’ve come out anything like the way I intended! LOL So if they seem to lack polish, that’s why. Though, hopefully I’ll get better at it with practice! So I’ll also be sharing my music on my Soundcloud for good measure. Though, again, I don’t know how often I’ll be able to do that.

I’m also relaunching my music as a largely acoustic undertaking this time. Not that I won’t plug in sometimes! But after thinking about it a lot, playing a live instrument feels more authentic to me than the fake, computer-generated band accompaniments I used to use. Not that I’m committed to remaining a solo act for life, though! I would love to play with other musicians in the future when I find the right ones and have the chops. But playing with other actual musicians feels different to me than playing with a fake, virtual band! Playing with other musicians involves A, actual playing of real instruments, and B, actual sharing of making music with other people. And that feels more in line with my values than using technology to fake it.

Anyway, I hope you all enjoy my music! I’m certainly going to really enjoy finally being able to share it. Because, as much as I enjoy writing and doing my podcast, music is really my first love. That’s where the real magic is for me!

P.S.

Uh, yes, I did say the name of my own channel wrong in the video. LOL Oops! That’s what I get for not checking my own details before filming and posting. But the correct name is, in fact, Spirit and Voice. My bad!